Hello my friends!
I am alive...barely, but alive.
On the 23rd of November my husband of 17 years left me. He decided he didnt love me anymore. At 1st I felt like he was just confused and needed time. I tried to give him time , but I missed him so much and I'm afraid I did a pitiful job of it, but I tried. The hours turned to days and the days turned to weeks and now almost 4 months later, we are getting a divorce. I am still in shock and the pain is almost unbearable. I am trying to survive, but thats about all im doing. I still have Whitney, Jessie, Noah , Ricky and little Rudy..., alot of responsibility, and seemingly, no strength, but GOD, who is rich in mercy, is carrying me through.
Most days I wake up and go through the motions, but I am numb and my heart beats like its gonna pound out of my chest.
Rudy always said "divorce is not an option" and "we'll be together forever", but I guess his way of thinking has changed.
Thank you guys for your prayers, please continue to pray for me and pray for my precious Rudy.
The bloodied Church
16 hours ago