Tuesday, December 18, 2012


 Hello Fellow bloggers and Random Readers.

 It had defiantly been a few minutes since i've been here.

Im gonna attempt to blog, but Ill probably be likeavirgin blogger so bear with me.

 Im 3 years older and I don't know anymore today than I did 3 years ago, except that bad things do
 happen to "good" people, that, I am not in control of ANYTHING, and you cant know another persons heart!
 Only God does!!

 And, ALL THINGS DO WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD, however I still cant find the good, but Im still looking at the small picture through human eyes...
 So, a few things I do know is,



 And never get too comfortable in your position in life because it can be ripped apart in a second, literally!

 NEver assume your partner is happy, and don't believe him (or her) when they say everything is fine, PEOPLE LIE. They look you in the eye and LIE.

 EVERybody is out for themselves.

 I am an option. I don't think I ever was a priority and am not sure that I ever will be.

 I am a rung on the ladder of finding perfection...

  ...I miss my Mama and Daddy, they are the only ones who loved me, really loved me.

Find happiness in GOD and yourself and NEVER depend on anyone else for anything...

 I have not done this, and I don't know if Im capable, I think I try, but Im not very good at anything I

  I am pressing on, everyday! I am trying.

 This is my mindset these days. Not very comforting or reassuring, but I am not these things, at least not anymore.
 Some days I feel better, some days worse, but never myself again.
 I am damaged merchandise. I am not myself anymore.

If by chance I run into people I use to know and they tell me they miss me, I tell them I miss me too.

 I don't know me anymore, Maybe one day Ill be better because of this. But for now, for today ,

                          I exist.

Saturday, February 06, 2010


Hello my friends!
I am alive...barely, but alive.
On the 23rd of November my husband of 17 years left me. He decided he didnt love me anymore. At 1st I felt like he was just confused and needed time. I tried to give him time , but I missed him so much and I'm afraid I did a pitiful job of it, but I tried. The hours turned to days and the days turned to weeks and now almost 4 months later, we are getting a divorce. I am still in shock and the pain is almost unbearable. I am trying to survive, but thats about all im doing. I still have Whitney, Jessie, Noah , Ricky and little Rudy..., alot of responsibility, and seemingly, no strength, but GOD, who is rich in mercy, is carrying me through.
Most days I wake up and go through the motions, but I am numb and my heart beats like its gonna pound out of my chest.
Rudy always said "divorce is not an option" and "we'll be together forever", but I guess his way of thinking has changed.
Thank you guys for your prayers, please continue to pray for me and pray for my precious Rudy.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Checking In

I've been kinda checked out of blogland.
I've had a-lot of major issues going on in my life. I'm trying to take one day at a time and deal the best way I know how.
I am just so glad that I have the ROCK as my foundation or else I would have crumbled.
I am generally a pretty tough ole' gal but as of late I have been a bumbling spineless jellyfish, with absolutely no confidence in myself. That could be a good thing... God has been holding me up! These issue's will either pass or be resolved.
I keep quoting Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.
I stand on that verse, my life revolves on that verse. I think that the "all things" is exactly that ALL THINGS...good , bad, indifferent. I think that as a christian, God is growing me through trials. He puts us through the refiners fire, and makes us pure. I want God's will in my life. I want to be what He wants me to be. I know that prayer doesn't necessarily change things, but it can and will change me.

Friends, I need your prayer.

Thursday, November 19, 2009


I am so judgemental.
I can hardly stand myself...
I start thinking about things, sins maybe, that I think are heinous or detrimental to me, concerning teaching my daughter they're WRONG...
I get so angry at people who spit in Gods face, who say they are christian, but live contrary to Gods word. It makes it so hard to try to teach my children right from wrong. It causes me to question things that I think are wrong...are they really ?
Maybe I'm too staunch on things.
I refuse to let my daughter wear a revealing bathing suit or bikini . I stand firm on it. She may grow up and do the opposite, but like Ive said before,
"until she get some convictions of her own, and as long as she's living in my house, she will live by MY CONVICTIONS".
I believe that men are visual creatures and I believe that part of the reason that there are so many rapes, molestations ect...is because of the way that women dress... Am I blaming the victim? Absolutely NOT ,
no-one has the right to violate another person, ever, for any reason, but at the same time, I ask you to think about this : Maybe...I mean, I'm not cold hearted. I'm not going to go to the rape victim and say "its your fault", But I will say to the young girl or woman who's showing their breasts, or wearing short shorts, or revealing clothes, that your asking for men to look at you... Not to be violated... But... just who's looking at you?
I tell my daughter " just remember its not only the cute hot guys that are looking, its the daddy's, grandpa's, dirty old men, and perverts too"
It is in a mans nature to look, and they do.
You know the bible tells us in the gospel of
Matthew 18:6 But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and [that] he were drowned in the depth of the sea.
To me this says that you should not tempt people to sin.
If something is a weakness to a brother (fellow christian) then, I should help him, and not cause him to stumble.
Ive told my daughters-in law that" If ,when you get dressed, you look in the mirror and can honestly say,
"I wouldn't mind my husband looking at a woman dressed like this",
then wear it,
if it would make you mad for your husband to look at a woman dressed like you are, then don't wear it,
someone else's husband may be looking at you and you would be causing the same reaction that the naked woman you claim your husband is looking at has caused...
Does that make sense?
We have so many so called christians that are on the social networking sites and they post pictures of their lives ,and that is fine, I do it too, but come on... my kids are looking... Please take the ones off that are causing the conflict between me and my kid... If you say your a christian , dont you think you have a little bit of "human responsibility"?
She holds you in such high esteem... You may be the mother to her best friend, her school teacher, her coach, one of my friends who boasts the name of "christian".

Your "christian liberty" is causing people to stumble...
or so they say. People who say they adhere to Gods word... I have the same problem with the christian drinkers...
OK so, you may not have a problem with alcohol, maybe you can have an occasional drink and leave it there.
I am trying to teach my kids.
I say alcohol is a drug, it is a proven fact that alcohol:
~ causes divorce,
~causes women to get beat up ,
~causes fetal alcohol syndrome,
~causes wrecks,
~causes young kids to do things that they would NEVER do apart from alcohol.
You wanna use your "christian liberty" to drink,
fine by me but
I dont wanna see it,
I dont want my kid to see it,
I don't wanna hear about it
and for goodness sake
take the pictures down that have you "posing" with your bottle...
Those look so STUPID.
I almost expect the caption to have a name under the bottle...My best friend, LITE.
If you wanna drink, do it behind your closed HOUSE doors because I dont want my kid coming to me asking "if its so bad , why does so and so do it" Because you wanna know what my answer is?
It is that evidently so and so is either
1. a baby christian who does not know better
2. So and so is a walking contradiction, not a christian at all!
The bible says in James 4:11 Speak not evil one of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of [his] brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge.
I know that the Lord is gonna separate the wheat from the tares...
Matthew 13:30 : Let both grow together until the harvest: and in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares, and bind them in bundles to burn them: but gather the wheat into my barn.
I believe He's talking about ...
not at Wal-mart,
~or K-mart,
~or the club,
~or some social function.
I am asking for PRAYER.
I am really having a hard time with this

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

MY defence of my public humiliation of my CHILD!

What is humility?
hu⋅mil⋅i⋅ty  /hyuˈmɪlɪti or, often, yu-/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [hyoo-mil-i-tee or, often, yoo-]
–noun the quality or condition of being humble; modest opinion or estimate of one's own importance, rank, etc.

And the one we've all been waiting on the:

lowliness,meekness, submissiveness.


1Peter 5:5 Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all [of you] be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble.

What in the world is this saying?

Besides the obvious that we are to submit, what is submit? (honor, obey,trust, )
1.to give over or yield to the power or authority of another (often used reflexively).
2.to subject to some kind of treatment or influence.
3.to present for the approval, consideration, or decision of another or others: to submit a plan; to submit an application.

To our elders, what is an elder?
Greater than another in age or seniority.
Superior to another or others, as in rank -noun
1.An older person.
2.An older, influential member of a family, tribe, or community.
3.One of the governing officers of a church, often having pastoral or teaching functions

I think that , be subject one to another means: that we should be open, and listen to what your sister or brother has to say, but the final rule is , What sayeth the scripture... we should be clothed in humility : COVERED in humility!
You should see humility before you see me.
Scripture says God resisteth the proud
resisteth :
To strive to fend off or offset the actions, effects, or force of.
Synonyms:1. confront, counteract, rebuff. See oppose.
and the key word here
PROUD:feeling pleasure or satisfaction over something regarded as highly honorable or creditable to oneself

Synonyms: 1. contented, self-satisfied. 2. overbearing, self-important, disdainful, imperious, presumptuous. Proud, arrogant, haughty imply a consciousness of, or a belief in, one's superiority in some respect. Proud implies sensitiveness, lofty self-respect, or jealous preservation of one's dignity, station, and the like. It may refer to an affectionate admiration of or a justifiable pride concerning someone else: proud of his son. Arrogant applies to insolent or overbearing behavior, arising from an exaggerated belief in one's importance: arrogant rudeness. Haughty implies lofty reserve and confident, often disdainful assumption of superiority over others: the haughty manner of the butler in the play. 6. noble, imposing, splendid.

More than anything in this world I want humility... and I want to teach it to my children. If they are being proud and haughty, if they are drawing attention to themselves in a way that is not pleasing to the Lord, then I want the spot-light OFF.

I see nothing wrong with publicly spanking and if need be, humiliating my child in a public place.

Hebrews 12:8 but if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.

I would rather punish them and humiliate them when it is deserved and maybe put them on the right path than to stand by and let them believe the worlds lie that they are GOOD. Truth is they are BAD...Born bad, they got it from they're daddy ADAM

Psalm 58:3 The wicked are estranged from the womb: they go astray as soon as they be born, speaking lies.

Jer 17:9 The heart [is] deceitful above all [things], and desperately wicked: who can know it?

We don't teach our children to be bad. Theyre pro's. They come by it naturally!

But if you want them to be good, you have to teach them to be good, because being good is NOT something we come by naturally.

Back in the day when I was growing up, in school, if you were mis-behaving, you got put OUT of the classsroom which was humiliating (in front of all your friends) then sitting in that big old empty hallway alone gave you time to think about what you had done wrong. Then if someone saw you, O how embarrasing...and if the principal caught you in the hallway it was an instant spanking and then when your parents found out about it (O and they would , and the parents NEVER questioned the school), that was another spanking and the end result was that : You KNEW not to do whatever you had done that caused you the PAIN and HUMILIATION that you had endured...a lesson was learned. YOU knew that YOU had caused your pain and humiliation.

Todays world blames everything on someone else, or some type of dis-order...When in reality most things that cause us grief are REACTIONS to our own ACTIONS !

The world today has the message that says "build up their self esteem"

Self esteem:
1.a realistic respect for or favorable impression of oneself; self-respect.
2.an inordinately or exaggeratedly favorable impression of oneself.

self esteem... is sending ALOT of people straight to hell!

my bible tells me to "keep 'em low", teach them humility and thats exactly what I'm gonna do.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


What is "biting your nose off to spite your face" saying???

Cultural Dictionary

Don't cut off your nose to spite your face

Don't engage in an act of anger or revenge that will hurt you more than it hurts anyone else.

This is exactly what my dear daughter has done and is doing...

We had every intention of ,when she was eligable to get her drivers licence, doing just that.

My prized RED JETTA Photobucket

is paid off and that is exactly what Whitney would have been driving TODAY. She was eligable for her licence yesterday, but instead of driving, I am still having to take her back and forth because she is so prideful and lacking in humility!

You would think this 16 year old would come to her daddy and I and say "Ive done some things wrong", but I want to repent and start over and be a daughter that would be pleasing to ya'll and the Lord, but NO that would require throwing out her pride, so instead, she'll keep up that big bad fassad and ride with me... It seems so simple to me. I guess its hard for her.

I keep thinking these are the years that she will remember, this should be good times for her. I think if I could do it for her I would, but I can't. I guess we could just give in and let her walk all over us, but no we can't!

There is not a particular thing she has done, its just "no respect". Not saying that she has done nothing, she has, but as her parents we forgive and move on. Our Father forgives us , so we are to forgive, which is hard sometimes, but we do try.

She has a phone, WE pay the bill every month, but she has not used it for months because: We don't owe her her a phone...it is a priveledge, and in order to have this priveledge you MUST be obedient to our rules. If you dont, we pay for a phone that NOBODY uses!

So many would say it is teenage rebellion, but thats just a cop out, an excuse for "teenagers" to be disrespectful. The bible does not allow it, in fact a disrespectful teen was brought out to "the gate" and stoned to death!

Deu 21:18
If a man have a stubborn and rebellious son, which will not obey the voice of his father, or the voice of his mother, and [that], when they have chastened him, will not hearken unto them:
Deu 21:19
Then shall his father and his mother lay hold on him, and bring him out unto the elders of his city, and unto the gate of his place;
Deu 21:20
And they shall say unto the elders of his city, This our son [is] stubborn and rebellious, he will not obey our voice; [he is] a glutton, and a drunkard.
Deu 21:21
And all the men of his city shall stone him with stones, that he die: so shalt thou put evil away from among you; and all Israel shall hear, and fear.
Deu 21:22
And if a man have committed a sin worthy of death, and he be to be put to death, and thou hang him on a tree:
Deu 21:23
His body shall not remain all night upon the tree, but thou shalt in any wise bury him that day; (for he that is hanged [is] accursed of God;) that thy land be not defiled, which the LORD thy God giveth thee [for] an inheritance.

You wouldn't expect someone on the street to whom you've been rude and hateful to, to let you drive their car would you? Even in your house, if someone is continually rude and mean, I sure don't let them drive my car.

Now don't get me wrong. I love my daughter, but I don't owe her anything! I have loved, fed, nurtured,clothed, kept her warm, made sure no-one has harmed her. I have taken her to church, tried to instill good values and manners into her, tried to teach her right from wrong, shown the love of God to her, and I did not do these things so that she could be rude and nasty to me.

I realize that we are not the same person. My wants and likes are not necessarily her wants and likes. She's a whole lot more flambouant than I am. She likes somewhat gaudy jewelry, and different clothes than I do. I have for the most part catered to her style. I do draw the line on some things. I do not approve of, belly button rings, and she must be modest. I have shown her scripture backing up what I believe.

1Jo 2:15
Love not the world, neither the things [that are] in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

1Pe 2:9 But ye [are] a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light:
1Pe 2:10
Which in time past [were] not a people, but [are] now the people of God: which had not obtained mercy, but now have obtained mercy.
1Pe 2:11
Dearly beloved, I beseech [you] as strangers and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts, which war against the soul;

Rom 12:2
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Eph 2:2
Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience:

I have also told her that if she still feels strongly about getting her belly button pierced when she MOVES out , that will be entirely her business and none of mine, but as long as she lives here and seemingly does not have any convictions, she WILL live by mine! (Lester Roloff)

Things that please the world are not necessarily pleasing to the Lord, and we as christians are supposed to be "striving" to please the Lord

Jam 4:4
Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.

In the meanwhile...she is biting her nose off to spite her face.

I will not lie, it hurts me! I am so sad that she is acting like this. I want things for her, she wants them for herself, but she is not willing to throw out her foolish pride. I guess its just another one of our differences.
Dear Lord I pray that you would help her today. Make her pleasing in YOUR sight.

Where 'o where has my little girl gone?

I love you WHITNEY!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Listen to Wisdom! Proverbs 23:23 Buy the truth, and sell [it] not; [also] wisdom, and instruction, and understanding.

Little Anders had a fine new cap. His mother had made it for him with her shining knitting needles and balls of bright yarn. Most of the cap was red, but Mother had used up all her red yarn before the cap was done. So she knit part of it green and made the tassel blue.

Anders was very proud of his new cap. He pulled it down over his ears and marched through the house. His brothers and sisters told him what a fine cap it was.

But caps, Anders knew, are made for out of doors. He must go for a walk at once, to show his beautiful cap of red and green and blue.

A farm boy was passing by leading his horse. He noticed Anders' beautiful cap of red and green and blue and made him a deep bow. How proud Anders felt!

Then he met a big boy he knew. The big boy wore high boots and he had a bright new jack-knife in his hand. The big boy stopped short to look at Anders' beautiful cap of red and green and blue. He even went up to Anders and felt the blue tassel.

"I like your cap," said the big boy. "I will give you mine for it and my new jack-knife too."

Now Anders had never had a jack-knife and he wanted that bright new one very much. He thought he would be almost grown-up if he owned a jack-knife. But of course, he would not give up his beautiful cap of red and green and blue that Mother had made, for all the jack-knives in the world. So he shook his head and walked on.

The next person he met was a little old lady. When she saw Anders' beautiful cap of red and green and blue, she spread out her skirts and made him a curtsy.

"How dressed up you are, little boy!" said the little old lady. "You look fine enough to go to the King's ball."

"Well, I will go," said Anders to himself. "My beautiful cap of red and green and blue that Mother made; is fine enough for any ball."

And off Anders started to the King's palace. At the gate stood two fierce looking soldiers, with guns over their shoulders and shiny steel helmets on their heads. They stopped Anders and one of them asked, "Where are you going, little boy?"

Anders smiled at them and said, "I am going to the King's ball."

"But you cannot do that," said the second soldier. "Everybody at the ball has to wear a uniform."

Just then the Princess happened to cross the courtyard. She was dressed for the ball in a beautiful gown of white satin, trimmed with golden ribbons.

"This little boy does not need a uniform," said the Princess, "he has such a fine cap of red and green and blue. I will take him to the ball.”

So Anders walked beside the Princess, up the white marble steps and into the King's palace. On every side there were ladies in beautiful dresses of silk, satin and velvet, and gentlemen in fine uniforms with gold braid and buttons. They all bowed deeply as Anders and the Princess passed by. Anders felt sure it was because of the beautiful cap of red and green and blue, that Mother had made.

At last Anders and the Princess came to a big hall, where there was a long table set with snowy white linen. The plates and goblets on it were of shining gold. There were great dishes piled high with rich cakes. There were bowls of shaking jellies, pink and green, and baskets of fruit of many kinds. The Princess sat down in a chair of gold and told Anders to sit in the one beside her.

"And now you must take off your cap, my dear little boy," said the Princess.

And then she took hold of Anders' beautiful cap of red and green and blue and tried to pull it off. But Anders was too quick for her and held on to his cap with both hands. How could he let his fine cap be taken away! He might never get it back again.

"Give me your cap," said the Princess, "and I will give you a kiss."

Now Anders knew that it was very kind of the pretty Princess, to kiss a little boy like him, but he just could not let her have the beauti­ful cap of red and green and blue, that Mother had made.

The Princess coaxed and coaxed. She filled Anders' pockets with cakes. She took her fine gold chain and slipped it around his neck and she gave him a kiss on each cheek.

"Please give me your cap," begged the Princess, but Anders still held it tightly with both hands.

Just then the doors at the end of the hall opened and in came the King himself. He wore a beautiful cloak of blue velvet trimmed with white fur. On his head rested a great golden crown. Beside him walked gentlemen in fine uniforms, carrying hats with long plumes.

The King stopped by Anders' chair. He smiled at his daughter, the pretty Princess, and he smiled at Anders.

"What a fine cap you have, my little fellow!" said the King.

"Yes," answered Anders proudly. "My mother knit this cap for me of her best yarn. Everybody seems to want my beautiful cap of red and green and blue."

"How would you like to change with me?" asked the King still smiling. He put his two hands up to his head and took off his golden crown. Then he came close to Anders. He held the golden crown in one hand and with the other he reached out to take Anders' beautiful cap of red and green and blue.

Quick as a flash Anders slipped down from his chair and ran through the long hall. He dashed down the steps and out into the yard. The cakes tumbled out of his pockets, but Anders did not stop to pick them up. The clasp of the beautiful gold chain, which the Princess had given him, unfastened and fell off, but still Anders did not stop.

His two hands clung to his cap. His beautiful cap of red and green and blue was safe on his head. Anders ran and ran until at last he was at home. He burst into the cottage all out of breath.

"Why, Anders," his mother cried out, "why are you running so fast? And tell me where you have been all this long time."

As soon as Anders could catch his breath, he told his mother all the strange things that had happened to him. His brothers and sis­ters crowded around to hear his story.

When he had finished, his big brother spoke up, "If I had been there, I would have taken the King's crown. You were silly not to take it, Anders. A King's crown is worth a lot of money. You could have sold it and bought high boots and a velvet jacket and a velvet cap with a long plume, much better than your knitted-cap."

Anders blue eyes sparkled and his cheeks grew very red.

"I was not silly," he answered. "All the money the King's crown could bring, would not buy me a finer cap than the beautiful cap of red and green and blue that Mother made me."

And Anders ran straight into his mother's arms and she gave him a big hug and many, many kisses.


Monday, October 12, 2009

Flustered in This WORLD TODAY!

Ok, So this morning , all is well, Whitney got a new pair of jeans and she was relatively happy (for Whitney) (I paid $30.00 and she paid $30.00 Kunkle John). I have to go through 2-4 way stops on my way to take her to school, or I should say 1-4 way and 1-3 way, to school, and the same on the way back.
Today was no different from any other day. The problem: People don't pay attention to when its their time to go.
When I'm one car back from the stop sign PhotobucketI look at the colors of the cars that are gonna go before me. I kinda like have a system in my head ...I go after the (color) car... It works well for me. I'm not saying Im perfect, but its kind of a common sense thing. Well this morning at my last sign (the 3 way) The one car went, then it was my turn, to turn left, but the big white dooley
1993 Dodge Ram 350 Clubcab Dually CTD - big truck wheels going straight starts to go.
I had started easing out and she barrels through with her lovely hand sticking up with the middle finger sticking up at me.
Now I know I have a temper, and road rage, or whatever you might want to call it, but I wanted to make the block and stop the big white dooley 1993 Dodge Ram 350 Clubcab Dually CTD - big truck wheels and whip this girls rear! I know this is not exactly a christian attitude, but I feel like the people who are doing these things are kids who've got no parents that have taught them anything, and I'm just the one to teach 'em!
A couple weeks ago I was sitting at the red light at the interstate and 69 in the left lane going straight up 69. I was the 1st car and there were several cars in the right-straight lane, when I heard a siren. It was faint, I barely heard it and the minute that I realized that it was coming up behind, the light turned green and I gunned it and got to the right, out of the way...the ambulance passed me and the car behind the ambulance, who was following the ambulance, passed with the window down and a guy hanging his arm out the window,shooting the bird, mouthing **** you...

I promise you, I NEVER wanted to catch up to a car any worse than I did right at that moment. I even thought about going to the hospital and putting a note on the car. I guess what I wanted to say was, WHY did you do that? I moved as fast as I could, I got over as fast as I could, WAS that necessary, did that make you feel better, to ruin my mood, to dis-restect me?
These are just two instances that this has happened, not the only times by any means.
Last week when I was dropping Whitney off at school, there was a car parked in the drop-off lane and everybody was pulling as far up as they could, letting their kid off and waiting a second or two, seeing that the car was just sitting there (not going anywhere) then backing up and going around the car, when I got up there I started to do the same thing, but the car behind me started to pass me so I tooted the horn at the car (that was sitting), when I backed up to pass, the woman rolled her window down and mouthed something, I being the confrontal person I am, stopped and said "Excuse me, I didn't hear you, Did you not know you are not supposed to park here, this is where you drop off your kids", she said "Yes I know it" and rolled back up her window... Does she know tht she's dealing with a former "MAD WOMAN" who at one time would have got our , ripped her out of the car and beat her derriere.......
BUT GOD... Sometimes I think that God is using the infidels to grow me. I get so angry, but then I think,

Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath:
Ephesians 4:26

There's gonna come a time when I stop and pray for these people, in fact maybe that time is NOW, because that just came to me. I have to have an outlet for my anger. Maybe thats the lesson, to get me to deal with my anger. There are lots of things that get under my skin and I do not deal with things right. This may be the Lords way of teaching me. I know these examples are not everyday occurances, but really, really how often does it happen to you? Am I just a magnet for infidels? Some times I wonder.
I was talking to Whitney about the 4 way stop signs teaching us patience...Photobucket
Maybe God is teaching me patience. I know that as christians, we still have the same emotions as people in the world , but we are called to handle things differently, sometimes I don't. When SHOULD we say something? When should we follow through and tell the truth in LOVE?

When should we stand up for things that are right? The bible says we WILL be persecuted for HIS sake.
John 15:20
Remember the words I spoke to you: 'No servant is greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also.
I'm not so sure I understand what this is saying.

I think I'm getting off the subject.

O well. I'm gonna try to start blogging my flusterations with the world because writing about things is supposed to help. We'll see!

My prayer today is:
That the Lord would bless the girl in the white truck and convict her of her mean-ness. But that He would also convict me of my anger (and He has) and forgive me of my sin of anger. Lord I pray that you would make me more like YOU!

O and by the way Whitney performed at "Country Fest" this past Saturday and did a fine accoustic set.

After she sang, I went home and let Rudy and her walk around a bit. Rudy bid on some paint in the Kawanis auction, and won...wonder what he's gonna paint?
Then we came home and Jessica watched Ricky while Rudy and I took Whitney to work, from 4-9, and Rudy and I had some alone time , which is RARE!

Friday, October 09, 2009

Welcome Carter-Happy Birthday Christopher

Rudy and I got a brand new grandson on the 6th. God blessed us with
Carter Wood Rodriguez
on this past Tuesday . He weighed 7 lbs 11 oz and has a head full of black hair. We made a quick trip to see him and cant wait to go back. He is a really pretty baby boy and we cant wait to "get to know him". Congratulations to Rudy II and Casey.

Happy Birthday to my oldest son Chris!

We had a great hamburger supper for Chris' 32nd birthday . He wanted home-made burgers with home-made fries and thats exactly what he got. We had a house full, including Meo and John , the boys dad-Mark,and all of our own boys except Little Rudy, who was busy taking care of his 3 day old son, and Chad, who was working ( We missed you Chad and Kathryn, Rudy , Casey and Carter!)

This is a "portion" of our "wild bunch"

Matt is getting ready to leave us again. He has joined the ARMY! He has already proven that he's one of "The FEW, The PROUD, A MARINE...But he spent all his education money getting his B.S.N.R.N. and he wants to be "more" , so he gets another sign on bonus, and more money for more college! He WILL either be a Nurse anesthesis, or a Doctor someday, you just watch! He's one determined, goal oriented boy, and he will "be all that he can be" . He starts officer candidate school on the 14th in San Antonio and will be stationed @ Fort Sill , OK. in January 2010. I'm gonna miss you son!

He is proof that, "If there's a will, there's a way!

Michael made it home and is staying with Chad for the time being. He has gone back to work for Tyler Pest Services. He will be searching for a new home for he, Kaleb and Kelly, who will be joining him here around December.

After the "party" , Whitney ... &

conned me into taking them down to Chris' house , conning him outside and bombarding him with water balloons. Well we tried. The balloons were too thick and did not pop like they were supposed to. Chris was cheesin' cause their ploy didn't work!
Happy Birthday Son! I love you!
I almost forgot... I pulled Lucas' tooth. Wow he bled alot! I should have taken a picture , but didn't. He must be growing up cause there were NO tears!

Monday, October 05, 2009

Copied From Challies Blog...

Thou art the Creator-Father of all men,
for thou hast made and dost support them;
Thou art the special Father of those who know,
love and honour thee,
who find thy yoke easy, and thy burden light,
thy work honourable,
thy commandments glorious.
But how little thy undeserved goodness has affected me!
how imperfectly have I improved my religious privileges!
how negligent have I been in doing good to others!
I am before thee in my trespasses and sins,
have mercy on me,
and may thy goodness bring me to repentance.
Help me to hate and forsake every false way,
to be attentive to my condition and character,
to bridle my tongue,
to keep my heart with all diligence,
to watch and pray against temptation,
to mortify sin,
to be concerned for the salvation of others.
O God, I cannot endure to see the destruction of my kindred.
Let those that are united to me in tender ties
be precious in thy sight and devoted to thy glory.
Sanctify and prosper my domestic devotion,
instruction, discipline, example,
that my house may be a nursery for heaven,
my church the garden of the Lord,
enriched with trees of righteousness of thy planting,
for thy glory;
Let not those of my family who are amiable, moral, attractive,
fall short of heaven at last;
Grant that the promising appearances of a tender conscience,
soft heart, the alarms and delights of thy Word,
be not finally blotted out,
but bring forth judgment unto victory in all whom I love.