Tuesday, March 06, 2007

pray for me!

Well today is another Tuesday. This is my day to go to the jail to see Chad. I usually go at obout 12;30 or 1:00 and stay til 5:30 . I dont know if Ive just been doing it for so long that Its starting to take a toll on me or if I'm loosing hope. I pray, I ask God to please hear me, to give me patience, to help me to accept this, but some days like today I just cant seem to get it together. I want my boy home. I just dont think the punishment fit the crime. I'm starting to think a little like Chris, that dope is a victimless crime. Chad did'nt hurt anybody, only himself. The system is hurting me by not letting him out. Do you realize it has been almost 2 years. His 22nd birthday is coming up , the second one he's had in prison,(no, prisons better, he's in jail...still) I can hardly think about it without weeping! Ya'll please remember me today, and Chad more than me. I'm so scared he's gonna give up. I asked him how were his cellmates, he told me that about the time he starts finding a friend, they get out or go to prison, he said I'm the only one that NEVER leaves. I kinda know how he feels cause the same thing happens to me in the visitation waiting area, about the time I find someone I can converse with, their loved one gets moved. anyway, This was'nt meant to be a pity me blog, but a pray for me blog, cause I'm really havin a hard time.
Its another beautiful day today, get out there and enjoy it!


Carol said...

Psalms 115:3 But our God is in the heavens: he hath done whatsoever he hath pleased.

We may not like some of the things that happen in our lives, but we can rest in the fact that God is in control and he knows best.

Romans 13:1 Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.

Teach Chad to respect the law and do what is right. God put those people in office, whether we approve of them or not.

Using drugs is not a victimless crime. There are so many victims of crimes committed because of drug use. Drugs destroy lives, those that use them, and the many others affected by those that use them. I say, don't agree with Chad on that. Teach him what is right and good.

Trust God's word. Rest in Christ. Don't put your love for Chad before Christ. Believe what Christ says.

Luke 14:26 If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.

I know my words sound harsh, and I know what you are going thru must be so very, very hard. I would not want to be in your shoes. I pray the Lord is with you and comforts you, and I love you and Chad.

As far as all the other prisoners leaving jail, perhaps making friends with criminals isn't what is best for Chad.

I hope you find relief soon. Trust the Lord.

Love you,

PS. John Bunyun was in jail for 12 years for preaching the gospel.

Jim said...

Glenda. Chris also celebrated his 22nd birthday in jail. He was there for 2 years before they finally sent him to prison. Prison is much worse. Not only because of the things that are done there, but because it's so far away. I won't be able to visit near as often, and he will be there for a very long time. When I pray for Chris I pray for Chad as well. I often remember you and Rudy also. I will make it a point to always include you two because I know how you feel.
Deuteronomy 7:9 Know therefore that the LORD thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;
By His Grace,

Jim said...

KQQL!!! I got 100% in the quiz. Wasn't absolutely sure of the last two, though.

By His Grace,

Glenda, saved by grace said...

Thank you for your "harsh" loving words...I realize all the things you say are true, I know these things, but some days I need a shove to get back in line with the word of God.
Jam 5:19 Brethren, if any of you do err from the truth, and one convert him;
Jam 5:20 Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins.
Thank you
P.S. it was'nt Chad who said dope was a victimless crime it was Chris.

Glenda, saved by grace said...

Thank you for your loving word. I pray for your Chris as well. Chad went to prison and was there from July to August of last year, then was bench warranted back for some reason in October and remains here. He said that prison was better because you can have a life in prison, but not in jail. I guess because you have an assigned bed and there is more room and recreation time. I want him out but on Gods terms...thats what I told him yesterday.Anyhow, thanks for the comments. Good job on the quiz!!! There's a new one every day.
Love you brother!

Glenda, saved by grace said...

Chad was in prison from July to October, not August...I guess thats what preview is for... :)

Baptist Girl said...

Dear Glenda,
My prayers are with you and your family and mostly with Chad. My heart goes out to you, being a mom too.